Saturday, 23 April 2016

Sorry

I've been a lousy blogger recently, I know - hardly blogging myself, not commenting on other blogs, although I have tried to keep up with reading them.

Recent events have left me feeling rubbish - depressed....well, not depressed as such, more empty and numb, directionless, unsure of myself and what to do.  I know I'm being cryptic but I really don't want to go into all the details in public.  Suffice it to say that something happened which upset me terribly and really annoyed me.  I haven't done anything to resolve it as it upset me so much and I was also really offended by it, plus I don't feel I did anything wrong.  I did write a letter to one of the persons involved explaining how I felt and why I was taking a stand, but have had no reply whatsoever.  It was something that was bound to come to a head one day, it was entirely inevitable, but I really can't see how it can be resolved - well, not without burying my principles and feelings, and why the hell should I do that? 

We did go away on an impromptu short break last week, and really enjoyed it.  However, since we've come back I just don't know what to do with myself.  It's not like I haven't got anything to do - I have.....the whole house needs vacuuming, all the windows need cleaning, there's 2 piles of clean washing waiting to be put away, one of the freezers needs defrosting, I really need to do a freezer and larder inventory and a month's menu plan as I want to get into the habit of doing a big shop just once a month.  Plus I have 2 crochet baby blankets on the go, with 2 more completed but needing ends sewn in. 

But I just can't find the impetus to get on and do any of it. 

14 comments:

  1. Sometimes events can hit you with a force that can knock you off your feet. If it takes you a few more weeks to get back on your feet so be it. I'm sorry that you're still having a crappy time, I hope with time it will pass xx

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  2. If ever you want to email me anytime to have a rant I am a good reader/listener. Sounds like you are having the most awful time, hope one day it can be resolved. The feeling of not being able or feel like doing anything I know well.

    Julie xxxxxx

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  3. I feel for you. This happened to me last July, and I'm still suffering, a lack of interest in anything - I hope you resolve yours quicker than that. Hugs x x

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  4. I'm so sorry that you are feeling down, hope you are able to get back into things soon, maybe when the weather warms up and you can catch a bit of sunshine things will look brighter.( That sounds a bit pathetic but I do think sunshine and warmth are a help in healing)

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  5. Just take each day as it comes, things you can't change you have to ignore, hope you feel better soon.

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  6. When something hits you for six, as it would appear something has done, all other things are secondary. Just take your time, perhaps time will resolve the problem. my old Mum used to say what can't be cured must be endured. But ensuring some things is painful. I hope your problems will soon be resolved.
    Margaret P

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  7. Something very similar happened to me last year although 'resolved' now only because I now bite my tongue and keep my thoughts to myself (which kills me sometimes) - it's now a case of once bitten, twice shy - but that's by the by - just thought I'd say that when it happened to me I started going swimming, first twice a week then I increased to 4 times a week and it helped me enormously - it was getting me out of the house plus the exercise made me feel better in myself - I know swimming isn't for everyone but perhaps going out for a walk each day might help - life's difficult sometimes isn't it ....hugs xxx

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  8. So glad to see you back - hope you enjoyed your short break even though things are not too good at the moment. Keep your pecker up, things will get better again in time. xxxx

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  9. I don't think you will have a response to your letter. You can't change other people; you can only change yourself. I hope that time will help you feel better about what happened. Life is often quite difficult isn't it.

    Take care and hugs to you.

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  10. Oh how I feel for you, I don't know what has happen but I will tell you a little of my story and if you want to get in touch we can talk more. A friend of mine? Who I was at school with over 60 years ago and have shared a very happy happy friendship with until about 2 years ago when she turned really nasty to me for no reason - she was not suffering from any illness or misfortune, I have tried quite a few times to find out why but to no avail, I have gone over and over the nasty things she has written and even now I cannot get her out of my mine and wonder what she meant by it all. It's a good thing I have a good family, lots of friends and belong to a few groups which help a lot.

    I do hope life gets better fir you for drones soon is so hard to bear at least you have a husband who is with you, my DH died 29 years ago.

    Please get in touch if you think I might be able to help.
    Tender and healing hugs,
    Hazel c uk




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  11. It's easy said than done, I know...it's easy for me to give advice from this distance so far away...but sometimes it's best to turn your back from whatever/whomever it is that is causing you so much distress. If you don't feel like doing anything...don't. Try to be in tune with you, yourself....to get back in tune with yourself and don't allow anyone else to be the cause of you falling out of step.

    Read a good book or two...listen to your favourite music..sit a while. The vacuuming can be done at another time...the house isn't going anywhere...the windows can wait. Your not cleaning the house and windows or defrosting your fridge isn't going to stop the world from spinning.

    Give yourself a break....do what Atlas did....shrug your shoulders...and perhaps, the troubles worrying you, which I'd say, you're not to blame for, nor the cause of will slide away. Give yourself a break....be kind to you.

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  12. Try to file it under R for Rubbish and look past it. I had a major hooroosh with most of my siblings after the death of my parents. Things were said that could not be unsaid and I washed my hands of the lot of them. The only one that I have any contact with is my baby brother in Australia. I may have missed out on family happenings but have not missed them.

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  13. I liked Marlene's comment about taking one day at a time....and a glass or two of wine helps too!

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  14. I am so very sorry for your trouble. It seems like you are more angry than sad, and perhaps that's better.

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