Recent events have left me feeling rubbish - depressed....well, not depressed as such, more empty and numb, directionless, unsure of myself and what to do. I know I'm being cryptic but I really don't want to go into all the details in public. Suffice it to say that something happened which upset me terribly and really annoyed me. I haven't done anything to resolve it as it upset me so much and I was also really offended by it, plus I don't feel I did anything wrong. I did write a letter to one of the persons involved explaining how I felt and why I was taking a stand, but have had no reply whatsoever. It was something that was bound to come to a head one day, it was entirely inevitable, but I really can't see how it can be resolved - well, not without burying my principles and feelings, and why the hell should I do that?
We did go away on an impromptu short break last week, and really enjoyed it. However, since we've come back I just don't know what to do with myself. It's not like I haven't got anything to do - I have.....the whole house needs vacuuming, all the windows need cleaning, there's 2 piles of clean washing waiting to be put away, one of the freezers needs defrosting, I really need to do a freezer and larder inventory and a month's menu plan as I want to get into the habit of doing a big shop just once a month. Plus I have 2 crochet baby blankets on the go, with 2 more completed but needing ends sewn in.
But I just can't find the impetus to get on and do any of it.