I'm having a real problem at the mo with motivation....or rather, total lack of. I have no interest in anything, the housework is going to pot, jobs are piling up and the place is looking untidy. Meal planning has gone out the window, lately it's been a case of grabbing the first thing that comes to hand out of the freezer mid morning and just cooking it simply with whatever veggies we happen to have. OH hasn't complained, bless him, he'll eat anything, but I know it's boring and it's got to stop, he deserves better. I haven't even done any crocheting lately.
I know this apathy is the aftermath of the upset and it would be too easy to just let it carry on, and then it will just get harder and harder to get out of it without resorting to drugs (antidepressants I mean....I'm not planning on becoming a junkie!). Well, I don't want to go down that route again - whilst antidepressants have helped me in the past, you have to be on them for so long, it's not a quick fix, and it takes months to come off them when you're better.
So I've decided the best thing to do is to plan on doing just 2 jobs a day, and to make something interesting for our main meal. I've had a couple of craft projects in mind for a while, they kept getting pushed back whilst the crocheted baby blankets took precedence. Well, now I think it's time to put the baby blankets on the back burner and start on the crafty things. One is quite small and shouldn't take long, the other will be more time consuming and fiddly. So once I've done my 2 jobs for the day, I will reward myself by doing a bit of crafty stuff.
So today I'm going to sort out the toiletries storage (we have a set of drawers upstairs where we keep them, and it's all messy to the point where I don't even know what we've got), and vacuum downstairs. Then I'll make smoked cod chowder for dinner this evening.
I feel better just for deciding that.